salam,
alan saat 10:17 shabe. pishi vaysade joloye man mige plastic boyee zadim too rah goosham terekid ;)
I woke up today and went to RBC at Union Station and came straight back to 11th floor to work on my assignment for D33. It is about RCT trials. it was a lot of work and it wasn't done. I have to wake up early in the morning and work on it since it was due tomorrow
right now, pishi put plastic boy in my ears and every second of my life is passing in front of my eyes every second it plays its bits in my ears.
this is the story of my life. full of UPS and DOWNS. wow... I grew up finally...finally...

I ran, I ran, 10 yrs..... very unfriendly life in front me. a lot of them couldn't even come out of my mouth. ,,,,,,,, then I met pishi....everything is changing... everything.... smoothing out....then life started to sing for me...

ummm,,,
anyways,
so just wanted to say that my mind has been very busy for the past two days.
It is been months that I couldn't wake up and do something that make me happy. it has been all about school and studying... I was already depressed when two nights ago that happened.
I was already in the middle of breaking but no one knew except pishi.
it is ok. I always say, that blow that doesn't make you bend, makes you a stronger person and I am not gonna fall down. I never did.
and this time I will fight it as well.
right now, I don't have much energy

I am crashing, I am falling,
sara, you really are killing me inside.........
I am really tired. it is not what happened two nights ago.
it is everything that is replaying in front of me...
why me? why so many crap has to pass in front of me whenever I wanna review my life?
why should the happiest moments of my adolescence be when I was friend with the most fucked up person which is Rana. interestingly  that was the only good moments which I was trying to escape from me and everyone else. other than that, everything was smashed and I was running and running...

and I guess pishi wanted to charm me, and he played suave mente in my ears ;) LOL and now I forget about everything and started dancing. hehehe....

suave mente,,,,,I make u feel u whatever....if u take me away..... LOL ;)
it's like dejavou babe ;)

anyways, after this I forgot what I wanted to write ;)
just wanted to say that i am very vulnerable at the moment and the only person who has always been in every moment by moment of my life is pishi and I am sure I ll get through this stage with pishim.
he has provided me with every peace in this house
only 4 more assignments and 3 final exams left ;) LOL
and about parents, later or sooner, I had to go through this stage. so better now.