Yesterday, I had a meeting with the owner of UT... Tree who is also a clinical director.
Finally, got the courage to say that I don't want to work with this client and at his home anymore. I also mentioned that I would love to be given the opportunity to work full time at the Centre but if it's not an option, unfortunately, I have to resign.
Omg, since I got out of that meeting, my shoulders are so light. It's as if the weight of the last 1.5 months is lift off from them.
I'll tell the entire story. The picture attached here is a summary of what I wanted to say at the meeting. It's put together with pishi's help the night before. Here is what happened:
I did my absolute best with this kid since day one. I left nothing short of trying to deliver the best and ensure that I follow my agency's and my managers' guideline and instructions. But there is always something going wrong with this client and his setting of therapy at home. I was absolutely honest with the clinical supervisor and my St in providing my feedback in our meeting which they always appreciated my honesty.
It started by his constant crying every morning at 8am whether he was watching video on his tablet at his mom's bed under the blanket to even responding a simple greeting (part of his program). Ignorance by him and his family towards me and mom telling me that I make an unfair judgment of her when I asked her that her attention escalates his crying as he is using you to escape tasks (as per my supervisor's guidance). It was going on until the owner and clinical supervisor joined my session one morning. When she saw this, she was unbelievably surprised by the home setting, his mom's interruption of the therapy session which was already draining for me.
So final decision was to remove his morning routine, putting on clothes and basically any life skills on hold. And move on with academic program. And mom asked that I start from 8:30 instead of 8am. Since that day, this guy sits on the sofa, watches cartoon, and eat pancake. And I can't say much because mom can't stand and don't want to see him crying. As long as he laughs and have a great time, she is happy. So I kind of was serving as a babysitter. One day I was to a playground at enchanted castle and dog walking. I was doing it with no complain and I managed to do one hour and half of work. Even with that he is not willing to learn and does not. He screams, looks at the ceiling, and basically does everything except paying attention to the task. But mom was and is so happy. Until last week that because of cold weather, I started getting sinus pain and ended up getting sick on Thursday. Even in the morning mom told me that everything is going great but me being sick interferes with the dog walking.
Another problem is the scary uninsanitary condition of that house. I don't need to write it here because I'll remember it forever.
Also, although putting on clothes is not part of his program anymore, this tall guy still is in diaper when I get there and mom expects me to help him to take off his diaper and put on his clothes. Waits for me to put on his shoes and jacket when it's time to go to school. Sit beside him when he is eating breakfast and watching tv. These are a babysitter's job but I still did it without complain.
My sickness, and lack of her understanding and expecting me go outside everyday and walk the dog for 35_45 minutes, this guys inability to learn, lack of motivation to complete any tasks, my waisted 1.5 hr without pay everyday, feeling so isolated from my coworkers and ur... Tree, lack of support and another IT, distance to the clinic, thinking of the drive on the highway in the snow for no good reason, not learning anything, not implementing ABA, lack of instructional control with client because of his mom, not being treated fairly like everyone else at UT... Tree, only be given one client everyday at the clinic in the afternoon, not being given a fair chance to work with the other kids at school, even with working 80hrs having to submit 50 hrs for paycheck, the stressful environment at work and being so static and emotional and physically unhealthy, my continuous depression, exhaustion and sadness over the past 1.5 month and director of operation'response to me telling her that I have a sinus problem and I can't walk a dog for 40 minutes a day with her response telling me, " wrap something around your eyes so you can and if I knew this I would have considered it when giving job offer", all led me to sit with pishi and listen to him and agreeing with him that I need to remove this client from my work at this agency and resign if I am not given the fair opportunity to work full time at the clinic like everybody else.
Ps. I had already told my St about the drive, my sinus condition, requested for another IT to join and share the responsibity.
To whomever I spoke with at the clinic, they said they wouldn't accept this and to them even my condition was surprising. A lot of them said that they are sorry that I am going thru this.
Although, I was very sick and emailed the admin that I couldn't go to this client's home in the morning, I made it to the clinic at 12 to attend a very important meeting with the executive director and owner and explained my situation. She felt sorry that my initial experience with her clinic has been so hard and she was surprised and not happy for the things that I told her that I went thru. She also said " you',re very professional and as always I appreciate your honesty".
My final thought to her was:
" I am sorry to say that I can't work with this client anymore. If that's the case, I have no choice but to resign". And I also said "I absolutely love to work for your agency and I would be more than happy to work full time at the clinic and grow with them for years to come".
She told me that Sara you're not the problem now, and the problem is this client. She told me that she has a lot to process and she will get back to me and will let me know. So I am awaiting her decision now.
I wrote all this in detail to keep it as a reference for my future.
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