Your response

Sorry. My problem with us is your unoptional life.  I have to pay emotional, mental, physical price for you wanting me to appreciate you because you don't have option. 

I think my capacity has reached to the max. I knew one day it may happen but never knew it would at this time. 

Sorry... 

I need to have someone that i can rely on, smell him, cry in his arms when I most need him 

Anyway! I am so tired of pampering you and be always home when u open the door, be always there when you are sick, go through loneliness 12 months a year because you always have exams and assignments. I can't anymore. 

And as you said, if you were me now, this relationship wouldn't matter at this point. So i wanna be a fast learner and trust me Ii don't care about it either anymore. 

Good luck on your exam. You ruined this half. Be smart and don't ruin the otherhalf  which is your exam. 

My flue

Worst flue of my life

It's almost 5 days that i am struggling with this viral infection. It's 3 days that I am staying at my parents since as usual sal.... is not there to help me at all. 

My dad took me to doctor yesterday, bought medication, juice, fruit and everything and my mom was taking care of me. And sal.... Just came at nights, said hi, spent may be not even more than 10 minutes with me and went on to take care of his own business which is as usual is study or work. 

I know that my heart really got broken this time. I needed him mentally. Even if he would spend an hr with me. But NO HE DID NOT

Anyway! I dont think i can scrub this scar from my heart ever. This marriage or whatever you call it, is not anything comforting or reliable that I turn my face into. :(

God! Pls help me get better before my team leader comes back from US.  This is what is left for me. Everything else, are changing in front of me and my eyes

Waiting waiting and waiting

I am waiting for Taza's response. It's been a long wait. I hope I get the position. I really need it. 

I have to wait one more week. 

God, please! You know I am capable of working for them. Let me explore my potentials this time. Please don't hold me back anymore. Please!

Quote from my novel "Destiny"

I was reading my Novel "destiny" and a guy in the story punched a coward colleague on the face. He said a sentence that i enjoyed it. I didn't want to forget it. Hence, I'm gonna write it here for future references ;) lol...

" the pleasure was cheap at the price"

And he thought the guy was a piece of shut ;) so use it correctly lol

2nd pic of my first SABZEH 2014

A week has passed and this is the progression of my first SABZEH. My babies are growing healthy :)

Transferring to a new company after barely two months :)

Today I had a meeting with Taza. 

I think it's a new start and I am very happy about it. 

Wow, cheers to new start, leads and a very busy work life and MONEYYYYY

I THINK MONEY PROBLEM IS SOLVED. 

just call k.w. and requested a meeting with my team leader tomorrow to ask for immediate transfer. 

God it feels good !!!

My first SABZEH for rid

Yeeeeeey this is the first SABZEH that i am making for soften 7sin. 

Yeeeeeeeey

I'm sooooo excited

I gave life to something. Hoooooraaaaaaaa