It's almost 5 days that i am struggling with this viral infection. It's 3 days that I am staying at my parents since as usual sal.... is not there to help me at all.
My dad took me to doctor yesterday, bought medication, juice, fruit and everything and my mom was taking care of me. And sal.... Just came at nights, said hi, spent may be not even more than 10 minutes with me and went on to take care of his own business which is as usual is study or work.
I know that my heart really got broken this time. I needed him mentally. Even if he would spend an hr with me. But NO HE DID NOT
Anyway! I dont think i can scrub this scar from my heart ever. This marriage or whatever you call it, is not anything comforting or reliable that I turn my face into. :(
God! Pls help me get better before my team leader comes back from US. This is what is left for me. Everything else, are changing in front of me and my eyes
He drove 2 hours and did not study last nite jute to be with you. He web to bed at 2:00 and came to you at 3:30 and 5:45 even knowing that today he has a final exam. He spent the entire Sunday taking care of you without studying. He did not take any day off even for his exam, but he did it to take you to your parents. afterall, it's final exam it's not optional...He is sorry and the situation is bigger than him and he can not cancel his final exams. He also spent half of every second these days thinking about you and that's why his performance on a day like this is less than half. He has finished only 5 chapter out of 8 chapters in exam as he is thinking a lot about you during his study time. He feels really bad but he also has no other options. Should any of these things were optional (today and Monday's exam), we would act differently. On a day like this, 6 hours before his exam, all he cared was to call you and make sure you are ok. Please , please , i know you hate him now, but i know he has been there for you if he had the option.... He loves you...
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