Sunday, 16 June 2013

My dad and the lessons that i learned today

I just learned today that without exception everyone except ur life partner put their wishes in their first priority before u and ur well being even ur parents. 

1- only learn to care about urself and ur partner first, and only when this was satisfied, then start wasting or willingibgly spend ur time and energy for others including ur parents. Leran to be kind to ur self and the small family that is being built and that's the only thing that matters

- today i realized that everyone wanna win the game of this life or worse they even play games with u to satisfy their needs

2- doori va doosti and in this case about ur dad
- whenever u get close, he may not respect the time and ur kind heart. It is going to be me who gets hurt the most. He wasted our whole day trying to micro manage our sunday. And i can feel that he doesn not mind at all. He is sleeeping without thinking about the consequences of his actions that may negatively affect me emotionally and timely. 
- i was really mad and i left my keys as i just wanted to get out of that place. 


* doori o doosti 
- so u both can respect and maintain the good relationship
- va msintaining a big roo dar vaysi. 

* he doesn't mind that i become annnoyed. Don't forget this so don't provide this opportunity. And if it happened , walk out with no care as u should only care and be kind to urself and ur partner

* be a little selfish and not selfless

I will think more about it in the sauna and try to organize ur thought.
Don't feel bad for people when they call u at a wrong time. Think about urself. 

Just wrote this to not to forget that he has these tendencies. Don't get that much affected. 
On regular basis , he appears very emotional but don't forget in realiy, usually he cares about himself and put himself in the first priority. ( he never skips ymca on saturdays )

Thursday, 13 June 2013

Graduation ceremony

Yesterday was my geaduation. 

My baby took off from work the whole day and he spent the day with me at the convocation. I love u babym and thanks for always believing in me and suppporting me all the way through this path......

My dad also came to my convocation and we went to sushi together. It was so much fun and i got a huge graduation gift. From him :D

Sunday, 9 June 2013

Sitting beside the street waiting for him to  make sure that the other guy won't see me.  

My heart's broken .....

Mmm..... 

Wednesday, 29 May 2013

I only hope...

Omidvaram hale pishi khoob she. 
That's the only wish that i have tonight ...

I think he is not feeling well. 
I am gonna insist that he goes to swimming every morning from tomorrow...

I love u... I wanna see u happy again ... Please...

What a week, phone and this bitch

What a week has passed. I have never experienced such an emotioal failure inside me. 
Today is the day that i have to put everything behind me. 
On friday my stupid cousin called just one day before my exam. The day that i bought a 30$ software to get ready for my exam but my performance was even below average. Fortunately, my exam went pretty well on saturday morning. Even though, i knew i could do way better. I just keep hoping that my exam has gone well otherwise, it is a price that i have to pay for other's behaviour. Even if this happens, i have learnt a very big lesson. No one can ever again affect me the way this bitch ruined my soul. Next time, if it happens, the only person to be blamed is me and only me. 
Anyway!!!!

Saturday night we went to ATB.  And i dropped pishi's iPhone and it got lost. I am very embarrased and ashamed of that. I try to save money in every possible way that i can but instead i dropped a 500$ iPhone which is such an embarassment for me internally. 
All these things have affected me and my baby very deeply. 

But, today i wanna get up and get back our happiness and peace from this universe. A very kind one to me and my baby. We will go through this together and will make everything alright again. 

I am sitting at the sofa right now because i am waiting for pishi's phone call to inform me if he has found the iPhone or not. He is going back to the club today to search for the phone for the last time. My fingers are crossed. God! Please help us find it. 

By the time i know, if it is found or not, i want to help both of us to change our paradigm and get back to our not so old happiness :)

This past two months with the existence of these assholes have been such a hassle which i won't let it stay in our beatiful home any more.  

Pishim i love u and i love our small beatiful family to death....

Thursday, 2 May 2013

It is only you

it does not matter how much i try to be happy.....

One thing i know, i am not to be blamed for.....

One thing is that i know i am not being missed at all :)
U gotta move on...
That's the reality of life... Accept it