Notes for me not to ever forget

And finally he said:

- my friends' wives all have Ph.D's and are doctors

- my friends' wives make about 100k-120k per year

- in few years, momkene nazare partneram ham hatta baram mohem nabashe 

And earlier today, he said:

- we might have chosen somebody else with different qualities at this age.

Need not to forget these. 

Thank you for your kindness...

95.2 lbs today

8AM Kickboxing

For the 1st time in my life and after one year of going to bighit, I showed up to 8AM class. It felt sooooo good although i was sleepy and hungry lol.

Troy killed us in powerbox.

Working from Coffee Shop

First day of working from coffee shop "Parisco". 

It is very efficient and I am very much focused. I guess this became my new hobby and I'll continue to so and explore the world of coffee shops in Toronto

99.4 lbs today

101.1 lbs

Omgggggg I'm soooooo haaaappyyyyy

And my Masters degree journey begins

102.2 lbs today

🤛🤛🤛💞💞💞💞 yaaaaaay

Sunday brunch @ shook

Very interesting and tasty zai Israeli breakfast.

Pishi got Manoushi & Cappucino

I got Israeli fry up and hot rosewater/beetroot

Longest hrs of work for Pishi's work projects

No joking when I say I worked straight in the following hrs without even getting up except when I had to go to washroom. It's 4AM now and I just finished with what ai promised myself to complete.

So, my hrs today:

11:30 AM- 7:00 PM

11:20 PM - 4:00 AM

12 hrs total

I'm exhausted and gotta go to bed. But I need to drink some water first. 

104.8 lbs

105.8 lbs today

Sunday Night @ Stackt

Our 3rd station. Belgian Moon at Stackt 10pm Sunday night :) 

Sunday evening @Wellington Bar

Sitting on the patio now with Pishi. It's been a hot day so shock top it is to cool down. Been a nice Sunday so far

Sunday Brunch @Portland Variety

Cactus Club Cafe Summerilious

With Kathy.. After few months.. 😊🤗 It was an amazing night

Friday night on Patio- Wellington Bar

Still trying to recover from Friday Fight...

Still trying to recover from our worst fight from last Friday....

It's been emltionally a rough road so far.

Have kept myself busy at night till 3-4 AM every night trying to find fun things that we can do together so maybe this helps us go back to the early days that we met.. I hope it helps...

I've also been bing-watching a tv series..

Tomorrow we're going to a buddhist temple for the first time. I'm hoping that it gives me a little internal peace and security. 

I have planned the entire weekend so we can get out of our shell a little bit. 

Falling asleep at night has also been proven very difficult for me. I wish I could erase my memory from last week's nightmare.

Pushing myself to go to bed now. I've got to start a bit strong tomorrow. I have to work on some projects which has a lot of work. 

My lovely, sweet and more than life Mamoosh has been beside me like a little lion. I'm going to sleep but I already miss her innocent eyes and fluffy body. 

Good night Toronto 

106.4 lbs today😁

Saddest Friday afternoon of my life...

My first kickboxing gloves

They started smelling so bad after 7 months until I decided to get a new Venum pair

109.5 lbs today

My home made lunch today

Mamoosh & her adventures

My grumpy girl's new spot today.
Ghorboonet beram man pashmake maman. 
Enghad sheytooni kard ta khabesh bord

Working from Parisco Cafe

This morning power of our entire building was out so for the first time after zillion years, I decided to go and work at this coffee shop beside our Bldg. I really enjoyed being out and sitting by the window and work.

I act like a prisoner and it's been going on since a long time but today was eye-opening and I'm gonna try getting out of home more often. Thanks to this work project that was due immediately which pushed me to get out and work from a coffee shop :)

I realized that it's even more productive this way. 

Cheers to many more times going out to a coffee shop. It really made me happy and less depressed and trapped in my daily routine

---

Brunch at Pickel Barrel Etobicoke

Pishi and I went for a brunch on Saturday morning and I couldn't resist this fettucini pesto pasta. It was sooo delicious 

God! I'm so alone..

I feel so lonely. Cannot stop crying since I woke up this morning.

Sal... Has his own life. He doesn't really care. Never ever had he been home to have breakfast with me on a Friday at 9 AM but he has time to meet his mom for 1.5hrs for such a simple task.

I'm not mad at him anymore. I'm mad at myself. Something must change. It's time for that change. This has nothing to do with anyone, but there is a sadness inside me that is tearing apart my heart. That shall change and this shall also pass :(

I'm tired of him judging me when I'm sad and mad. I'm simply tired. Very very tired mentally and emotionally. 

There is no one on this planet that I can talk to except this blog that I sometimes write and even with this I am careful that he doesn't judge me or try not to come home and tells me "it's beneath you". 

I'm tired of crying silently. My heart is really broken from a lot of things. 

I'm even done talking about a lot of things. If I had to die right now, I wouldn't mind at all. I'm emotionally so exhausted. 

I can't type anymore. My tears are covering my eyes and I can't see. 

I can't tell universe today that I try to be strong today. I am so week today and need a cane almost to get up and start with my day. 

I wish there was a kind and long hug that would wrap me in his/her arms and would tell me that I'll be fine. 

Mamoosh's endeavour tonight

Eshghe mamanesh in bache❤️❤️❤️

Niagara Falls Travelodge Hotel

At 3pm on Sunday we decided to go to Niagara falls lol.

Pishi cancelled his meeting with his prof. On Monday and we got a hotel and left Toronto around 4pm.

It was raptors second game in NBA, so we drank and went to Boston Pizza and sat at the bar and watched the game. We got beer and Nachos. We also went to a haunted house where Pishi who was drunk looks a little frightened lol. 

He also ate a huge croissant and a big ice cream cone Hehe... 

Scadabush Saturday Lunch

We went to Scadabush for the 1st time and I ordered chicken paramesian which was uncooked and tasted like water. So they exchanged it with a goat cheese and beet salad with salmon which was fantastic.

Pishi ordered pizza. 

Let's say we'll never go back to this place but it was so much nice and the restaurant was beautifully decorated. 

Donated to Goats to Africa

Pishi donated two Goats to African children because of my Master's acceptance at Western University. 

We wrote a letter to ourself on their behalf and we recieved this postcard today