Happy birthday to me being so unfortunate

10:30 pm friday night after a week full of work stress and fight with him, sitting home and eating my dinner alone and about to sleep alone in few minutes. 

He will probably be back around 11 or 11:30. (By the time that i am sleeping). 

See you tomorrow afternoon my so called imaginary kind husband. Happy birthday i guess

Mishka, i hear you

Mishka azizam I miss you so much. I miss hugging your small silk furry body so much now. I wanna hold you so tight now. I miss you pouring your hair all over my clothes. 

Wherever your beautiful innocent soul is now, I know you wanted to feel your mommy now. Just know that your mommy is right here with you whenever you call her. 

I just felt you and pls know that always always a fraction of my heart and solul belongs to you. You made me a better person with your beautiful eyes and demanding, craving need for care. I will always care for you wherever and whenever you need me. Pls help me and your daddy too. We count on your blessing little baby girl. I love you and i miss you and I will always miss you. 

Don't worry. Those birds's soul couldn't replace you. But if you like me, pray that a pet does because sometimes it's so hard to believe that you are gone mommy. 

Love you. Sleep tight and please find a good family to devote your soul into your new life. I celebrate your life then. Make mommyhappy cause I took a good care of you :) 

 You wanted to talk to me now. I know. Pray for us whenever you think of us. 

Hectic job and not rewarding at all today :(

I have worked my ass off on preparing and understanding this last minute notice of how to deal CP. 

It sounds like, the more you work, the more people start expecting and not appreciating. 

I am so tired. It's 1:41 PM. I haven't had the chance to even go to the washroom whilr everybody are at break. I can say 99.99% are at break. 

Their daughter called me and told me to cover for her. 

She always does that. 

This job is fucking hectic and unfair