Work, my personal life and my future. All wrapped around me and pushing me. It feels as if I am suffocating now. I drink green tea right after the next one, so that I don't burst in tears.
Even my husband thinks that i am unreasonable, spoiled, not a working material, and not ready to get challenged. He doesn't even feel what I feel anymore. That's ok. I keep getting dead end roads but the worst one is when you talk to the closest person to you, and he doesn't give you that comfort. He wants to but I guess he can't. So I won't blame him.
It's me who is hurt badly. If according to him, i am that unfit to work environment, then i have no more plan except work. So i better die really.
Nothing to care for. Not a small creature to care for or who needs me. Thank god whoever that is in my life is fully capable and doesn't need me to survive.
Anyway! I guess i'll stop talking. Back to my loneliness
