And sea horse made my day!!!

It was an absolutely beatiful day beside my baby and I in Toronto zoo. I saw the most adorable creature of the ocean and I'm still thrilled "sea horse". 

Another proof that my parents are assholes

I woke up today and I saw mishka in my baby's arm. That's how my lovely handsome husband with that purple shirt on woke me up this morning and kissed me to say good bye. 

Then I called my mom and she brought up the fact that if i dont talk with my so called dad, it will take longer and we may never talk and i said i dont care. 

Then she started saying that it doesn't look good infront of my pishi and mom. And i told her it's your responsibilty. And when then I realized that I am being blamed for everyyyyyyyyything even for my brother wanting to leave them. Then i sweared to my dad as she didn't even give a shit about how o feel. Long story short, I realized that they don't even give a rat's ass to me, my well being and my emotions AS USUAL. 

Today I realized that I won't even give a crap to them anymore. They ruined my whole life. The best years of my life and whenever I gain that confodence to move on with my life, they jump in and fuck it up. 

However I think, i can't find any good explanation of why these ass holes should be offended so fuck them for good. 

I will never trust them as I never did until few years ago. Even in the past few years, they were the ones who I was always ashamed of. 

Let me live my life and don't even bring up any arguement with me as I don't even think about you guys any more.  I will throw you both out of my life in a black garbage bag and please you do the same with me. 

I sweared at my dad and I don't even care if you tell him what I said. I won't even pick up my phone if he calls soon as I know that they want me lose and will make me cry. 

Fair Well

Termination with the team.... Genie

After 2 months of living in absolutely hopeful vibe and setting plan for future, i finally realized that they were false hopes and the team leader was as fake and as inexperienced as a one year agent who lived in dream like myself. 

Again I had to break a tie between what was fake ideal and get back to reality. 

Despite all, i learned very important lessons:

1- never rely on others for your success. Always hold the steering wheel in your hand and deal with reality

2- live in the moment and enjoy what you have. Be realistic

3- you should always take the stairs, then the ladder, and if you have done a great job, then feel free and take the elevator

4- always stay in full control. Use your vision, talent and potential. This will guide you to a long time success

This experience made me grow up a little more. Even though I put my pride and certainty on the table in front of everyone, I learned that none of theseincluding the pride matter. What matters the most is NOT GIVING UP and grow stronger to achieve your goal. 

I think these were worth mentioning and I am sure better days are ahead of us. 

GOD HELP THOSE WHO WANT TO HELP THEMSELVES!!!

Dominane, decipline and kindness tame animals 

let alone human!!!!

It's killing me inside!!!

We are on the highway right now. 

Please know that Shame has eaten me bitterly strong. I will promise to become successful in this. I will make it right and will act on it as soon as humanly possible for me. 

I will give you everything that anyone can wish for

Worked on cma and asigned tasks the whole week

I have been working my ass off to learn things that were asigned to me by my team leader.... Well the result of CMA was not that successful. I know I have to be patient to learn the tricks of this job. 

God help me. I need a client this month. Dont examine my patience. You already know that I will survive. But please make it easier for me. 

Worked on cma and asigned tasks the whole week

I have been working my ass off to learn things that were asigned to me by my team leader.... Well the result of CMA was not that successful. I know I have to be patient to learn the tricks of this job. 

God help me. I need a client this month. Dont examine my patience. You already know that I will survive. But please make it easier for me. 

It's life and it goes on

I will never dance with anyone or laugh...

I will postpone all my rights, all my feelings for a later time if the chance comes aroundone day. 

For now, this job iis the only thing that I should focus on. All my life, I have supported everyone around me specially those that I loved. But..... Anyway!!!!

That's why I need to fucus on this task that is due in our meeting tomorrow even with this headache. Doesn't matter how much i need to sleep now or how much I need someone to dupport me at this very moment. 

It's life and it goes on!!!!