I was just done with my Sociology of education final exam

It feels as if many very heavy weights has been lifted from my shoulders.

Thank God !!!

One more exam to go...
Even though pishi don't look at it as an exam, since I am not familiar with the topics, it requires times and effort still.

I will celebrate my graduation next week.. yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey

God knows how happy I am next week at the same time... :D:D:D:D:D:D

you know what? for the past 10 years, this is the first time that I feel fulfilled personally. the last time was when I got addmission to U of T. It has been hard past 10 years and I don't know how 20-30 passed.
BUT,
I have a long life ahead and I will make up for everything. yeeeeeeeeeeeeey

sick and lonely

It is 9:15 PM
I am very sick. I am very alone. no one is here to take care of me.
pishi went to second cup at king to study.
I am very sick and like most of the time in this life, no one is here to take care of me.
 I don't want to interrupt his concentration and I wanted him to go and study.
but I really need someone to give me soup and medicine and comfort. That's what I have always done for everybody.

I am writing this to remember these days and to remind pishi how I understanding I was so he won't tell me that I am not agreeable.
well, life has given me no option.
I threw up a lot now. I cried because I was scared that i would faint because I felt that I couldn't keep my balance . I sat in the washroom for 5 mins before I could get up from the toilet sink.

I wish someone was here to comfort me. I am very sick and I am very alone whenever I am sick.
I guess my rage and anger sometimes is because of all these things that draw on my unconscious.
I encouraged him to go and study because he doesn't have enough time to study during days. I prayed for him a lot and I hope one day he gets what he deserves. and I hope one day we become a normal united family.
anyways, I love our life and I hope one day it gets better.