Thursday, 6 September 2018
Wednesday, 5 September 2018
Tuesday, 4 September 2018
Past few hard weeks mentally& physically draining....
My brain is so busy all the time. After I failed my evaluation at MH, my effort in securing a new job has not stopped yet. But the weight of the this and the thought of having been treated so unfairly bothers me so much still to this day.
I hope in 2019 next year at the same time, the following changes and goals have been met:
1- having a FT permanent job
2- having a master's admission
3- having a more joyful life style as opposed to this boring sofa neshin life
4- a healthier mental state
5- a more loving and intimate life
6- no depression
And as always, on top of my list and everything, first the health and success of my loved ones.
Tuesday, 21 August 2018
Failed eval. At MH today so unfairly
It was such an emotional day. I failed my integrity eval at MH sooooooo unfairly. I was not trained properly and I am given one month of full time hrs and after that goes to 0 hrs as CPT.
Pishi was so supportive tonight and I realized that there are other jobs that are better in every other day.
However, it's still so upsetting, sad and unfair. I'll never forget this day and the amount of emotional ups and downs that I went through.
My ST also was ashamed and told me that it's on her too.
That fucking asshole Salo.. fucking bitch girl also ignored me for the thousandth time.
Happy to get rid of this unhealthy sick work place with its asshole co-workers but I am really sad that it went this way not because of my performance and committment but because of wrong training.