At hospital. How unfair. For a cold and fever

Next week, at this time, I will be in iran as oppose to sitting in the hospital and watching every drip of serum water. 

I swear none of these patients have anyone sitting beside their bed. 

God knows i would never do this for my own family. 

Thank god I am leaving and I don'tknow until when. I know that I don't know them that well but at least I am far away from those that I don't want to be around them anymore. 

Arguement on Friday night. 1 week before I leave for Ira...

Next week at this time, I am in the plane on the way to Qatar. 

Last night even though I was waiting for hjm the whole day, it didn't go as expected. 

He even mentioned that Better That You're Leaving :( 

I am not mad or sad today. When we argued and I was feeling like crap, it was 10:40 PM. Hope next week you won't miss me. If you did, remember this friday. I was so sad last night and couldn't argue or cry anymore. I needed a break from ladt week's arguement. I went down stairs and saw Kim who lives at LPH 01. She invited me to her apartment for a glass of wine. 

I went and it was very nice. 

He stayed home and had pizza by himself. 

This was the first time that after an arguement going to start to make me cry and crazy, i left. 

I hope, me leaving makes him happy as well. And if not, I hope when I get back things are better. 

Anyway I am not sad today. Just wanted to document this memory. 

And there are 6 days left before i leave for iran. 

Cloudy and gray

Today, the weather is in line with me and my feeling. Cold and gray...

Except!!!!! That the love of my life pishi warms and melt my heart and keeps it hopeful...

Hello after a loooong time...

Good Morning Toronto, 

It's been so long since I have posted on my blog. 

I miss you too. I had forgotten my password and just recovered it.

A lot has happened. A lot of good things that are in the process of being dealt with. Like pishi's new job offer ;)

As for me, I am going back home with my mother in 4-5 weeks. Ofcourse, i am very excited. One of my luggages is already full and ready. At the same time,  I know I will miss pishi, my life and my privacy here. The thing is that I will onlystay  there for 20 days and the rest, I am in plane ;)

Khob have a wonderful day and since I have access to my blog again, I will definitely write more 

Good morning

Sob bekheir....

Have a good day...

Confused....

I wanna have either a proffesional life or the most simplest life. 

God!! Please help me....

I am disappointedand tired

I wanna make money :(

Or  be the best wife!

Clear it for me...

I have tried my ass off. At least let me be the best in one of these

M small heart and this big world

In persian we have an expression thst says "my heart has grown thin recently". I think this is true about me. 

I can't call it getting hurt but there is this thing  inside my heart that gets sad and surprised by lots of things going on around me. Then I become alone and heal myself again till the next person comes around and tears that thin line in my heart again.  It feels like a woriness when this happens. 

Well!!! That's how it is I guess.