Worked on cma and asigned tasks the whole week

I have been working my ass off to learn things that were asigned to me by my team leader.... Well the result of CMA was not that successful. I know I have to be patient to learn the tricks of this job. 

God help me. I need a client this month. Dont examine my patience. You already know that I will survive. But please make it easier for me. 

Worked on cma and asigned tasks the whole week

I have been working my ass off to learn things that were asigned to me by my team leader.... Well the result of CMA was not that successful. I know I have to be patient to learn the tricks of this job. 

God help me. I need a client this month. Dont examine my patience. You already know that I will survive. But please make it easier for me. 

It's life and it goes on

I will never dance with anyone or laugh...

I will postpone all my rights, all my feelings for a later time if the chance comes aroundone day. 

For now, this job iis the only thing that I should focus on. All my life, I have supported everyone around me specially those that I loved. But..... Anyway!!!!

That's why I need to fucus on this task that is due in our meeting tomorrow even with this headache. Doesn't matter how much i need to sleep now or how much I need someone to dupport me at this very moment. 

It's life and it goes on!!!!

My outfit today- 2nd meeting

1st meeting with RE/MA....

Today was the 1st team meeting with Re/ma.... Team. It took 5 hrs and from what it sounds, i will br getting clients from the team leader once I learn everything. The other 3 team members have each been in this business for more than 3 years and they have already got clients from our team member. 

I am so excited. 

I felt sooooo good and felt that I have a professional job this morning and I matter to this world. It was such an amazing feeling. I felt alive and hopefully the next decade, I will make up for the unfair lost time. I will be more in control and can surprise and treat my baby to gifts and vacations and i canalso cover part of our household finance so that pressure will be taken away from pishi. It's my dream to contribute to this house and our small family. 

Moreover, since both pishi and I are looking like two fat camels (lol), we went and ran together for 10 mins. The weather wad cold so we came back home. It happened after a long time. 

I think losing weight, intimacy, health and my work are my priorities for year 2014. 

Going to slee. I have my 2nd meeting with the team tomorrow. 

Good night :)

Back home after a week

Alan baad az 1 hafte ke be khatere flue khooneye mamanam ina moonde boodam, oomadam khoone. 

Kheili delam tange makhsoosan baraye safaye mamanam. Kheili behem resid. Kheili mehraboon bood. Kham be abroo nayavord. 

Kheili del tangam. Nemidoonam che tori farda bayad bidar sham tanha. Mamanam soba mioomad roo moble kenare takhtam mineshast :(

Bayad dobare be in tanhayee adat konam. Age halam khoobe khoob she okayam ama alan ke hanooz kamelan khoob nashodam o delam nazoke, kheili rooza too khoonamoon behem sakht migzare. 

Khoda kone shaba sal... Havamo dashteh bashe nazare delam bishtar tang she

Khodaya

Khodaya :(

Akhe khodet khoob be man negah kon. Man dige joon nadaram. Har chi dashtamo gerye kardam. 

I hope there is really something wrong with me....

I am sooooooooo tired of him. Very tired and disappointed of whom i chose for life and who he became throughout years. 

Shayad inja hamoonjayee hast ke dige rahe man o oon baraye hamishe az ham joda mishe.

Khodaya nazam kon bekhabam. Tanam dard mikone. Khodaya baram lalayee bekhoon ta aroom bekhabam. 

Kheili tanham amma midoonam dige mohabate oono nemikham. 

:( khodaya baghalam kon ta ashkamo ba baghalet pak konam :( khoda joonam kheili tanha shodam ba oon... :(