And this is my halloween candy :)

And after a good argument, we started to eat my halloween candy from pishi

Dont know how to deal with this one now

God help me

I'm getting killed inside

Help me to deal with him and get it over with tonight

Sounds like when i used to not show my sorrow to anyone worked better

Get back to who were. That's the art of my survival so no one feels desperate liking me liking me as my parents or loving me as my husband

Get stronger than ever before

I failed :(

I failed my exam 

Last night, right when i finished cleaning and making food, i found out that i failed the 3rd course. 

Very unfair.

When i got suspended from university, i remember that i kept telling mysekf that i deserve it because i didn't take school seriously and i literally didn't even bother to go to mu classes. 

BUTTTT,

This one was very unfair. 

A day has passes and i am still in shock. 

Stufied the whole day today. 

The only explanation,

FUCK evil eye

Honda depositttttttt

We are at the dealership

Yeeeeey just paid the deposiiiiit 

Pick up on nov 22nd

Yeeeeeeeey hoooooooraaaaaaaaa

Mashine 0 kiloooooooomeeeeeetr our baby accord here you cooooome 

Nice day after all...

I love my life today. 

Studied pretty well. Cooked chicken noodle soup. Had a glass of wine and heading to swimming pool ....

I wish i would truely behave the same way when i feel so depressed, desperate, helplesss, hopeless and alone. 

I am realizing that it is absolutely just the state of mind that makes you feel the way you do. 

And i think i am getting to a good understanding. It might help me to help myself with depression when it comes to me. 

Nice lesson and hope for its internalization for the future to come. 

I dont want to use my fancy wine glasses. Look what i have poured my wine in ;) 

And life goes on .....

My first mushroom kookoo;)

It's now 7:17 pm on saturday. Pishi just came home from work and studying.  

I finished studying residential around 2 pm and i started cooking this beautiful mushroom cookoo ;)

We just decided to eat at home from now on since we are buying a car. Surprisingly i realized how much we love it :)

I love him so much

He can't call me anymore and i should understand and be patient :(

No miss calls or ring anymore

Just silence and silence

I can almost hear the sound of my breath these days.....

3 more weeks.... And i will begin my new life.... 

It's hard to only study and talk to no one.... Help me go through this 3 more weeks before i lose my strenght

To the good beginning :(

Don't know what to say anymore