What a week has passed. I have never experienced such an emotioal failure inside me.
Today is the day that i have to put everything behind me.
On friday my stupid cousin called just one day before my exam. The day that i bought a 30$ software to get ready for my exam but my performance was even below average. Fortunately, my exam went pretty well on saturday morning. Even though, i knew i could do way better. I just keep hoping that my exam has gone well otherwise, it is a price that i have to pay for other's behaviour. Even if this happens, i have learnt a very big lesson. No one can ever again affect me the way this bitch ruined my soul. Next time, if it happens, the only person to be blamed is me and only me.
Anyway!!!!
Saturday night we went to ATB. And i dropped pishi's iPhone and it got lost. I am very embarrased and ashamed of that. I try to save money in every possible way that i can but instead i dropped a 500$ iPhone which is such an embarassment for me internally.
All these things have affected me and my baby very deeply.
But, today i wanna get up and get back our happiness and peace from this universe. A very kind one to me and my baby. We will go through this together and will make everything alright again.
I am sitting at the sofa right now because i am waiting for pishi's phone call to inform me if he has found the iPhone or not. He is going back to the club today to search for the phone for the last time. My fingers are crossed. God! Please help us find it.
By the time i know, if it is found or not, i want to help both of us to change our paradigm and get back to our not so old happiness :)
This past two months with the existence of these assholes have been such a hassle which i won't let it stay in our beatiful home any more.
Pishim i love u and i love our small beatiful family to death....